why German girls kick ass.

I'm German...mostly. My grandpa learned to speak english when he went to elementary school after his family moved to Wisconsin. Unfortunatley, I never learned the language...except for the one phrase that he taught me which loosly translates to "my dog farts." I remember that he would crack up everytime he said it and my sister and I would repeat it.
Germans are stereotyped as being larger than other people. Stalky I should say...and that's because we LOVE beer. Sometimes I think that I'd rather be fat and happy and drunk on a good beer than anything else. That said...my baby girl will be German...mostly. She's already 7.5 pounds and I still have 6 weeks until my due date...and 3 weeks until my scheduled delivery. I can't even imagine how big she would be if I had to go all the way to 40 weeks. Whew.
I think she likes beer too. Izze does. He likes to take empty beer bottles and pretend like he's drinking. I know he gets a taste when he does that and then he says "mmmm" He's a funny kid. He got a spanking the other day (sorry for all you non-spankers...I spank when needed) for kicking and hitting me while I was getting him dressed for school. After I spanked him (and he had on a diaper, so its not like he felt much...probably hurt his feelings more than anything) he pointed his finger at me, sobbing and said "no, no mama." Little fugger. I felt kind of bad after that and then he just wanted to be snuggled.
Having kids is hard. Knowing how to discipline is REALLY hard. Especially when they are old enough to understand, but not to really communicate. Plus, Izze is German...mostly and he's VERY strong. His pediatrician comments on how muscular he is at every visit. He's a handful...but he's snuggly and cute and I love him more than I could have ever imagined I would.
I've been reading an ongoing article on babycenter.com about a mother who has 2 kids under the age of two and she is so honest with her struggles and it makes me feel better to know that I'm not the only one out there who is worried about having enough love for 2 kids. I still feel bad for even having a 2nd child, because I feel like I will miss Israel after Tallulah is born...and at the same time, I want to be able to bond with Tallulah and love her just as much as I do Israel...but will I get the chance to bond with her like I did with him? Probably not. He was my world for so long...especially the few weeks that I was with him day and night after we came home from the hospital. Now, when I bring her home from the hospital, Izze will be there and I will want to spend time with him and hopefully that doesn't mean neglecting my bonding time with her. I think she'll be a daddy's girl anyway. I hope so. I was a daddy's girl and I loved it. I hope the same for Jeff and Tallulah. I think that men who have daughters are softened in a way. Sweet.

Well until next time...I may post some last pics of me and my huge belly...we'll see if I have the energy to stand up long enough to pose. :)

Crunchy Shrimp Rolls and Tempura,
Amy